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So yesterday was a good day.

People are finally talking to me and I am finally talking back. So aside from the wonderful homework assignments we are giving, I am liking Shell.

But the only problem is that, in order to actually talk to people, I end up embarrassing myself. more than usual. I try to be more outgoing, comment on topics, and start conversations. I've known for awhile now that in order to really start talking to people I have to be the one to make the first step. I have to bring up conversation topics and actually take some control. No one's going to do it for me, and if I do nothing then no one will talk to me and it will all be pointless.

I really need to start blogging earlier. Right now is not the time to do it. Mom wants on right now, I should be doing homework right now.

But I need to blog.

Hmm. this feels a lot like doing NaNoWriMo. I know I'm writing total crap but I keep pressing on. Who cares that my grammar is terrible and I can barely put a sentence together? I have to blog! Right now!

So in the end, I think it is very much worth it to embarrass myself in order to make friends.

I'm very self-conscious. I worry that I laugh too much, too hard, that my breath isn't quite fresh enough and that my hair is awful (it very often is). Do my clothes fit in enough (on a side note, my fashion life is getting better. In fact, I think it even has something to with my social progress at Shell.)

So all in all, I'm happy with Shell. So much more happy than last year.